The start of it all

Monday, January 16

Well I leave for the big North Carolina at the end of the week. I figured that I should try and get used to this blogging thing before I get out there so that maybe I can keep it up to let people know that I'm still alive out there.

Today I came to Manhattan to drop off Nibbler with Kacie and spend some time with friends before I leave them all for the 3.5 months that I'll be out there. I was really looking forward to today and was so glad to see Kacie again after all this time. She really is a best friend and it's just nice to see her again. I've learned recently that I cannot be without my friends. I realize that I need people much more than I thought and I am not as "Independent" as I thought I was. Although I'm sure I will meet a lot of nice people out East, it still hurts a lot to have to leave people and family behind.

This will be the farthest and longest that I have ever been away from my family and that scares me a bit. I know I big and seem strong but inside, I'm really kinda a softy. I mean, I have a bunny for Pete's sake! At least he is being left in great hands.

My father is going to be driving out to NC with me and we are doing the drive in two days since it's a 16 hour one. Staying in Nashville Friday night and then getting to my duplex on Saturday afternoon probably if all goes well. My training will be starting the Tuesday of that week and I am looking forward for something new and exciting to do. I am staying with a guy and his fiance and their dog so I won't be in a house by myself which I am so glad for. I'm afraid that had I stayed in a place by myself I may have gone insane. All the emotions of this last month and all the changes that I have had to make in my life the last thing that I wanted was to be alone again, 1000 miles from any friends or family. It would not have been a healthy place for me to say the least. But again, not trying to write an emotional novel.

Not saying that I'm a wuss or anything, but I am a little scared of what the future holds for me. I am excited to see what that all might entail, but still scary at the same time. I know I can sorta come off as tough or trying to be, but that's because I have a great shell to try and hide my emotions from everyone. I know this whole blog is random but whatevz, you don't have to read it haha. It easiest for me to speak when I can't see peoples faces so my true feelings and thoughts are going to come out on here. So be prepared for that!

I'll stop for today, keep a look out for future posts. Especially next week when I get out East.

Till then,
Zach