Today we did our PEB testing for physical fitness. I'm happy to say that I've lost another 10 pounds and scored well on the flexibility and body composition. I came in 5th in the 1.5 mile run and out of 26 students, and I'll take that. 2 kids here are cross country freaks. For my age group I scored a time in the 83rd percentile for all students in the Law Enforcement Academies in the United States. I also scored decent on my benchpress, lifting 110% of my body weight. I could lift more if the machine they used was more "tall" friendly. It makes you start the lift from too low and my shoulder hurt after doing it. Oh well, I have 3 months to work out and bump that percentage up. We had a guy lift 380 pounds, but he's fat and ran slow and sucked at everything else. I also did well on my Illinois Agility run. I had a time of 16.75 seconds and that was on wet pavement so when I do it in May, I know that will be much faster.
Overall I think I'm very high in the class as far as fitness goes. I'm continuing to lose a lot of weight, partly due to my turkey sandwich and banana for lunch diet. I haven't had pop since my dad left and don't see myself drinking it while I'm here at all. I enjoy being in good shape and realize how not in shape I was before coming here, haha and I'm only 3 days in! I may actually reach my weight goal of 190-195 pounds.
The amount of information that I am receiving is ridiculous. My brain is so tired from 8 hour lectures. Today was only 4 hours of lecture and 4 hours of Physical Training. Tomorrow is another full 8 hour lecture day. So draining for me since I can't use pop to wake myself back up.
I like everyone in the class except one girl. She sits right in front of me and shakes her head yes if she agrees with the instructor, or no if she doesn't. But her head NEVER stops moving. She is a living bobble-head. She does this constantly. Constantly sucking up to our instructors. Such a stupid Know-it-all. Everyone in class feels the same way too, we've all talked about it. She claimed yesterday that she runs 8-10 miles, and I beat her 1.5 mile time by over a minute and a half. Cocky idiot. Yes I am tired and cranky tonight but she sucks and you all should know she does. She can take her masters degree and shove it.
I try to be perfect here, since that's what they want anyways, not that it doesn't come with consequences. My roommate told me to not get burnt out and that he thinks I'm trying too hard. I know I am, but I just don't want to be noticed for anything that isn't perfect, since that is met with physical demands such as pushups or running. Everything that does happen in class that isn't perfect, we do physical things as a group. So if one person continues to screw up, they will soon know about it. We can't hit him or anything, just yell at him when he messes up. I already see one guy making us do a ton of stuff by how sloppy he is in general. I shouldn't complain since I want to get in great shape.
Oh well.
Sorry for the cranky blog.
Zach
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Another day
Well I'm two days in going on to my third. Today, (second day) was a morning filled will drill instructions. How to march in formation, how to turn, how to do all that stuff. For me, a really easy morning since showchoir pretty much made my feet know how to do right. haha. Strange thing about drill this morning. We were expecting some guy to just yell and scream at us, but we were met by a neat surprise. Our drill instructor was a recent graduate of the program here and has only been out in the "world" for a few months. She, yes she, was also very pretty. She told us, "I know you think I'm just a cheerleader, but I've worked very hard to earn my place here among the force." So I respect her for that. I did laugh at her when she came around inspecting our salutes, because she couldn't see mine and said, "You're too tall" and moved on. HAHA she got owned. I was doing it right though. Also while doing the turns and different cadence calls, so told me I could stand aside because I had it down. I think 8 hour days of dancing dance steps finally paid off!
After lunch, the positions of Sergeant and Corporal were given out to the two students who showed the most leadership and discipline. My roommate Shawn was awarded Corporal, which he wasn't happy about. He's been through 4 camps now like this and he didn't want any responsibility. Being the roommate though, it will only make me better as well. While drilling, he and another Marine were helping everyone and the instructors saw this as leadership, when he was only doing what he could do to help. He wasn't trying to show off or stand out. So I feel bad that he has to do it. The other guy got the rank of Sergeant. His name is Robert and he's alright, really nice, but really "Marine". So kinda a d-bag.
The afternoon was filled with lecture. Today's main lesson was History and Mission of the NPS (National Park Service). This was very boring. Sitting through 6 hours of it I was so ready to just fall asleep, it was torture.
Tomorrow we have our first PEB or Physical Efficiency Battery. As a 21 year old I must score in the 25 percentile of my peers. Basically it's a 1.5 mile run, an agility run, pushups, benchpress, and a stretch test. I timed myself in the 1.5 mile run in Manhattan last month and if I can keep that pace I will be in the 92-93 percentile, which is pretty good I think. I also have to benchpress a percentage of my body weight, and since I weigh about 210 pounds, and can benchpress at least 210 pounds, I think I'll be ok since it will be just a percentage of that. Pushups I got down and stretch and agility we will just have to wait and see. My ankle is still really bad and I'm not sure how the agility will affect that. I'll just have to take it easy.
Trying to fall asleep and pay attention is that hardest thing for me right now. Although I'm tired, even now, I still have so many thoughts running through my brain that it's hard for me to focus on just sleeping. I've been watching things on Netflix just to "distract" my thoughts. It's working so far, but I"m going to be later than I'd like. During class, especially today, my brain was all over the place. I took good notes and followed along well, but it was a constant struggle to keep on task. Just too many things are happening all at once in my life right now and it's kind of starting to show in my brain. It's a mixture of knowing what I want, and confusion all at the same time. Very mentally draining, which is partly why I'm so tired all the time. Luckily I don't have any time to just sit and think. I basically got up at 6:30am and have been working on things from then till about 10:00pm. That's a long day if you can add up the hours.
I'm really looking forward to a day off to just collect and catch up on some needed rest. Sadly that day isn't for another week. I'm doing my best to stay off the radar. Not that I'm not trying here, but I'm doing enough to not get noticed, but also not doing too much, and getting noticed. I think as long as I do what I'm told, and do it well, and don't complain ever, I'll be just fine. The days are already starting to blend together, and it feels like just one big day so far which is good and bad I guess. It's going by fast I think, and am so excited to be home already.
There is a girl in class that was talking about going skiing, so I'll have to see where she's going and try and tag along, I fear I won't get to do that as much as I wanted to. :(
-Zach
After lunch, the positions of Sergeant and Corporal were given out to the two students who showed the most leadership and discipline. My roommate Shawn was awarded Corporal, which he wasn't happy about. He's been through 4 camps now like this and he didn't want any responsibility. Being the roommate though, it will only make me better as well. While drilling, he and another Marine were helping everyone and the instructors saw this as leadership, when he was only doing what he could do to help. He wasn't trying to show off or stand out. So I feel bad that he has to do it. The other guy got the rank of Sergeant. His name is Robert and he's alright, really nice, but really "Marine". So kinda a d-bag.
The afternoon was filled with lecture. Today's main lesson was History and Mission of the NPS (National Park Service). This was very boring. Sitting through 6 hours of it I was so ready to just fall asleep, it was torture.
Tomorrow we have our first PEB or Physical Efficiency Battery. As a 21 year old I must score in the 25 percentile of my peers. Basically it's a 1.5 mile run, an agility run, pushups, benchpress, and a stretch test. I timed myself in the 1.5 mile run in Manhattan last month and if I can keep that pace I will be in the 92-93 percentile, which is pretty good I think. I also have to benchpress a percentage of my body weight, and since I weigh about 210 pounds, and can benchpress at least 210 pounds, I think I'll be ok since it will be just a percentage of that. Pushups I got down and stretch and agility we will just have to wait and see. My ankle is still really bad and I'm not sure how the agility will affect that. I'll just have to take it easy.
Trying to fall asleep and pay attention is that hardest thing for me right now. Although I'm tired, even now, I still have so many thoughts running through my brain that it's hard for me to focus on just sleeping. I've been watching things on Netflix just to "distract" my thoughts. It's working so far, but I"m going to be later than I'd like. During class, especially today, my brain was all over the place. I took good notes and followed along well, but it was a constant struggle to keep on task. Just too many things are happening all at once in my life right now and it's kind of starting to show in my brain. It's a mixture of knowing what I want, and confusion all at the same time. Very mentally draining, which is partly why I'm so tired all the time. Luckily I don't have any time to just sit and think. I basically got up at 6:30am and have been working on things from then till about 10:00pm. That's a long day if you can add up the hours.
I'm really looking forward to a day off to just collect and catch up on some needed rest. Sadly that day isn't for another week. I'm doing my best to stay off the radar. Not that I'm not trying here, but I'm doing enough to not get noticed, but also not doing too much, and getting noticed. I think as long as I do what I'm told, and do it well, and don't complain ever, I'll be just fine. The days are already starting to blend together, and it feels like just one big day so far which is good and bad I guess. It's going by fast I think, and am so excited to be home already.
There is a girl in class that was talking about going skiing, so I'll have to see where she's going and try and tag along, I fear I won't get to do that as much as I wanted to. :(
-Zach
Monday, January 23, 2012
D-Day tomorrow.....
Well my dad left today to fly back home to Kansas. Super hard to let him out of here. He was such a great help and I wouldn't have been able to do anything without him here. So thanks Dad.
Other than drop him off I haven't done much today. I started my workout's for while I'm out here. This consists of running to the top of my mountain, and the "300" workout. I think the combination of this will prove sufficient for my stay out here.My roommate heard that our Physical Training is only 1.5 miles of running. If it is, I am going to destroy all people.
I'm downing the bananas in preparation for the cramps I will have tomorrow. I need to eat healthier though. That's step two. 2 hotdogs or a sandwich is not going to cut it. I NEED MORE! I'll have to find some good meals to make for myself and roommate Shawn. He's really cool. He was in Afganistan not too long ago fighting for our country and lives in Alaska, and is going to work there when he is done here. His fiance is from New York, where he is also from, and she went home today too. She may or may not come back to stay after a month goes by. She cooks very well so I hope she comes back!
I start class tomorrow and both Shawn and I don't know what to expect. It should prove to be an exciting day. My countdown for coming home officially starts tomorrow. Even though I know it will probably be fun here. You better believe that the second I'm done graduating from out here, I'm jumping in my car and driving straight home, stopping as little as possible. I already calculated that I need to stop 3 times for fuel if I leave with a full tank. I'll get food at one stop and only gas at the rest. 16 hours is long, but a couple Red Bulls and I'll be home before I know it. Not that I'm not excited to be doing this, I'm just amazingly excited for my return home. I smiled just writing that sentence, that's how excited I am.
I have been reading my "textbook" for class, and I must say, this is the biggest waste of my time ever. Completely pointless and I am "dumber" just for reading it. Shawn agrees so it's not just me. He said you could slam your hand in the door and learn more than this book teaches you hahaha. He has 2000 movies here so that's going to help us when we get bored.
My bathroom has a heated floor, and I've decided, that when I have a house I am putting one in. It's so amazing when getting out of the shower. Nice warm floor, ha makes me want to shower just thinking about it.
I'm going to go ahead and apologize for how much "blogging" I will be doing. I told myself I would blog once a week, but I see now that it's going to be more often than that. I'll at least feel like I'm "communicating" with people if I write. I know someone will read it. I hope all of you who are reading this are not already sick of hearing me blab. Put yourself in the middle of a forest on a mountain and tell me you wouldn't be lonely. If you think you wouldn't be, lies.
I hope all of you are having a great start to 2012!
-Kbai
Zach
Other than drop him off I haven't done much today. I started my workout's for while I'm out here. This consists of running to the top of my mountain, and the "300" workout. I think the combination of this will prove sufficient for my stay out here.My roommate heard that our Physical Training is only 1.5 miles of running. If it is, I am going to destroy all people.
I'm downing the bananas in preparation for the cramps I will have tomorrow. I need to eat healthier though. That's step two. 2 hotdogs or a sandwich is not going to cut it. I NEED MORE! I'll have to find some good meals to make for myself and roommate Shawn. He's really cool. He was in Afganistan not too long ago fighting for our country and lives in Alaska, and is going to work there when he is done here. His fiance is from New York, where he is also from, and she went home today too. She may or may not come back to stay after a month goes by. She cooks very well so I hope she comes back!
I start class tomorrow and both Shawn and I don't know what to expect. It should prove to be an exciting day. My countdown for coming home officially starts tomorrow. Even though I know it will probably be fun here. You better believe that the second I'm done graduating from out here, I'm jumping in my car and driving straight home, stopping as little as possible. I already calculated that I need to stop 3 times for fuel if I leave with a full tank. I'll get food at one stop and only gas at the rest. 16 hours is long, but a couple Red Bulls and I'll be home before I know it. Not that I'm not excited to be doing this, I'm just amazingly excited for my return home. I smiled just writing that sentence, that's how excited I am.
I have been reading my "textbook" for class, and I must say, this is the biggest waste of my time ever. Completely pointless and I am "dumber" just for reading it. Shawn agrees so it's not just me. He said you could slam your hand in the door and learn more than this book teaches you hahaha. He has 2000 movies here so that's going to help us when we get bored.
My bathroom has a heated floor, and I've decided, that when I have a house I am putting one in. It's so amazing when getting out of the shower. Nice warm floor, ha makes me want to shower just thinking about it.
I'm going to go ahead and apologize for how much "blogging" I will be doing. I told myself I would blog once a week, but I see now that it's going to be more often than that. I'll at least feel like I'm "communicating" with people if I write. I know someone will read it. I hope all of you who are reading this are not already sick of hearing me blab. Put yourself in the middle of a forest on a mountain and tell me you wouldn't be lonely. If you think you wouldn't be, lies.
I hope all of you are having a great start to 2012!
-Kbai
Saturday, January 21, 2012
North Carolina
Well we made to NC no problem this afternoon. We ate at a good barbecue place in town then headed to my place in the mountains. I had such high expectations for my place, everything seemed well. But when we got there, it was nothing like how the lady advertised. The master room is awesome, as is the kitchen and living room. But my so called "room" was nothing more than a hallway with a small twin bed in it. I was so devastated. Mixtures of anger and sadness overwhelmed me and it was all just a lot to deal with. Basically I panicked. I thought that I couldn't live in the space and although I was going to tough it out, my dad immediately started looking for a new place. Problem being, that it was 4pm on Saturday. We didn't hear back from anything we found, or that my mom found actually, she was such a big help. My landlord was talking to dad and I, by the way she sounds like she may die any second, she's just old, and my roommate Shaun showed up. He was in Afganistan for a while fighting for our country so it's cool to be rooming with him. He's a solid guy and I see us being friends through the rest of our time here together. He is pretty in shape so I have a lot of work to do to get at his level but I'll try.
Long story short, I'm staying in my current place. Shaun and I may look at other options once we get going with training but we will just have to see. I think I can tolerate it for now and we will see how I hold up as I get further into training.
Dad took me to Wal-Mart to get groceries and picked up the bill, such a great guy. I'm so glad he is here with me. I'm not sure what I would have done if he had not been here when I saw my place. I really don't know, I'm so unstable right now and I think being alone here without him would have proven to be not too good. So glad he is here to be my rock and shoulder to lean on.
I'd like to say congrats to my friend for buying a new car today!! Always fun to get new stuff in my opinion.
K now on to the mountains. OH MY GOSH! The scenery here is out of this world. I've never seen anywhere so beautiful (except Colorado where I want to live someday) I plan on taking so many pictures while I'm here. I am going to explore every time I have free time. I may add more to this later but I'm sleepy and need to start getting some good rest. I still think too much at night and that keeps me up late so I'm hoping that stops soon.
Till whenever,
Zach
Long story short, I'm staying in my current place. Shaun and I may look at other options once we get going with training but we will just have to see. I think I can tolerate it for now and we will see how I hold up as I get further into training.
Dad took me to Wal-Mart to get groceries and picked up the bill, such a great guy. I'm so glad he is here with me. I'm not sure what I would have done if he had not been here when I saw my place. I really don't know, I'm so unstable right now and I think being alone here without him would have proven to be not too good. So glad he is here to be my rock and shoulder to lean on.
I'd like to say congrats to my friend for buying a new car today!! Always fun to get new stuff in my opinion.
K now on to the mountains. OH MY GOSH! The scenery here is out of this world. I've never seen anywhere so beautiful (except Colorado where I want to live someday) I plan on taking so many pictures while I'm here. I am going to explore every time I have free time. I may add more to this later but I'm sleepy and need to start getting some good rest. I still think too much at night and that keeps me up late so I'm hoping that stops soon.
Till whenever,
Zach
Friday, January 20, 2012
Made it to Nashville
Well we made it to Nashville around 7pm tonight. I ended driving the whole trip today which I didn't plan on, but did. I must say, the accents here are horrible. I really can't stand that but it is something that I will have to get used to I think. Got to see a lot of country that I have never seen. We had great roads all the way here in Nashville and we rolled along pretty good. No cops or anything so that's always nice. Have a great time with my dad and got to talk to him a lot and that was nice. Something we haven't done enough of. He is an amazing man and I'm so lucky and honored to have him as a father. I hope the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
Earlier today it went so great. I was excited to get to my training and was feeling so good emotionally. After getting to Nashville or a little before, I started thinking about things and started getting pretty down again. I really thought that getting a ways away from home and people I love would make things easier but again, I was wrong. I'm going to stop now and go ahead and apologize for this post and probably the next few as they are going to be me just saying how sad I am and how much I want to be home. I know things will get easier and better once my training starts, but until then, it's going to be rough. I've decided that I'll use guitar as an escape from things and may even try my hand at song writing. The last few months have been so hard and I've learned that if I don't express my feelings I may lose what I love so I figure I need anything to get my mind off of all that.
I'm going to try and do a lot of hiking whenever I have daylight. Not only for fitness, but to try and be not sitting and thinking. The break from my internship till now I have had so much time to think, and the more I think, the worse I get. I am so sick of feeling down and out. I know talking about it probably isn't helping, but I have to say something, to someone, anyone. Sorry that my thoughts and feelings are coming out on here, but what else is a blog for? I am just so confused on my feelings lately and hopefully I catch a break soon.
But back to what I'm doing. We are staying in a hotel tonight in Nashville and then leaving in the morning. Only 4 hours of driving tomorrow so that's much better than the 12 I did today. I may have dad drive tomorrow though. I need to try and read my book for school. I hate reading and have been struggling to get that reading done. I'm looking forward to running down here in the south country. It's nice temperatures and I'm really excited to get more fit and strong. I'm sure none of you know this, but I have always been insecure on my looks. As a guy, I know we are always wanting to be strong and fit and I'm hoping that with this training, I get into the shape I want to be in. I plan on taking photos of my first day and my last day here. If I make good progress I may post them but again, I'm insecure about it so I may not, time will tell.
I know I will do well here though. I'm am one of the most competitive guys I know, and my whole goal here, is to make everyone else look like crap. I'm not going to be cocky or arrogant to anyone at my training center, but they should know, a Kansas farm boy is about to rock their world. If I'm not the most in shape, or the best shooter, or the best trainee, I will be very shortly. It may seem shallow or mean, but I love when I realize that I'm better than someone at things I enjoy. I feel such a joyous feeling of success that it makes me try even harder. Main things like this are dodgeball and snowboarding for me. Mainly I just like being good at things.
Sitting here watching Gold Rush with dad in the hotel. Getting some sleep tonight for our departure tomorrow. I look forward to taking pictures of my place and my area to show you all, if I can figure out how to post photos on here. They will be on my facebook too.
Till tomorrow,
Zach
Earlier today it went so great. I was excited to get to my training and was feeling so good emotionally. After getting to Nashville or a little before, I started thinking about things and started getting pretty down again. I really thought that getting a ways away from home and people I love would make things easier but again, I was wrong. I'm going to stop now and go ahead and apologize for this post and probably the next few as they are going to be me just saying how sad I am and how much I want to be home. I know things will get easier and better once my training starts, but until then, it's going to be rough. I've decided that I'll use guitar as an escape from things and may even try my hand at song writing. The last few months have been so hard and I've learned that if I don't express my feelings I may lose what I love so I figure I need anything to get my mind off of all that.
I'm going to try and do a lot of hiking whenever I have daylight. Not only for fitness, but to try and be not sitting and thinking. The break from my internship till now I have had so much time to think, and the more I think, the worse I get. I am so sick of feeling down and out. I know talking about it probably isn't helping, but I have to say something, to someone, anyone. Sorry that my thoughts and feelings are coming out on here, but what else is a blog for? I am just so confused on my feelings lately and hopefully I catch a break soon.
But back to what I'm doing. We are staying in a hotel tonight in Nashville and then leaving in the morning. Only 4 hours of driving tomorrow so that's much better than the 12 I did today. I may have dad drive tomorrow though. I need to try and read my book for school. I hate reading and have been struggling to get that reading done. I'm looking forward to running down here in the south country. It's nice temperatures and I'm really excited to get more fit and strong. I'm sure none of you know this, but I have always been insecure on my looks. As a guy, I know we are always wanting to be strong and fit and I'm hoping that with this training, I get into the shape I want to be in. I plan on taking photos of my first day and my last day here. If I make good progress I may post them but again, I'm insecure about it so I may not, time will tell.
I know I will do well here though. I'm am one of the most competitive guys I know, and my whole goal here, is to make everyone else look like crap. I'm not going to be cocky or arrogant to anyone at my training center, but they should know, a Kansas farm boy is about to rock their world. If I'm not the most in shape, or the best shooter, or the best trainee, I will be very shortly. It may seem shallow or mean, but I love when I realize that I'm better than someone at things I enjoy. I feel such a joyous feeling of success that it makes me try even harder. Main things like this are dodgeball and snowboarding for me. Mainly I just like being good at things.
Sitting here watching Gold Rush with dad in the hotel. Getting some sleep tonight for our departure tomorrow. I look forward to taking pictures of my place and my area to show you all, if I can figure out how to post photos on here. They will be on my facebook too.
Till tomorrow,
Zach
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Leaving friends
Well I guess here's my attempt at blog #2.
Leaving my friends yesterday was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I wish I could say I didn't cry but I did. I'm pretty sure I shed more tears yesterday than the rest of my life combined. Actually, I know that's a fact. I never cry and I gotta say, I hate it haha. I know it's a release but I feel so weak and so pathetic crying like I was. At this time I'd like to thank a certain someone for being my "listener" for the day, so thank you very much. I know that I will see everyone again in just 3.5 months, but this is something I have never done in my life and that's being so far from everyone I know. This blog title should just be Emo Zach but I'll try not to be a pansy here.
Leaving Nibbler was hard. Having a companion by your side for as long as he has, it's hard to just up and leave him. Knowing he's in good hands is a bonus though.
Saying goodbye to my sister Katrina was really hard too. She's in her second semester at K-State and I've been around her all break so it's hard to say bye to a close sister and friend. On that note, saying bye to Nathan and Adam was also hard, I just wasn't around them as much so its a little easier with them.
Today my mom brought me cookies and milk while I was packing up. That made me realize how much I will miss her. She is so caring and loving and its just another hard thing to do.
I stopped by Jordan Broxtermans house before I left Manhattan. Getting to be with those guys for a few hours was really nice for me. I didn't think I'd see them before I left and that was kinda hard to take, luckily I did stop by and just hanging out is going to be something I miss greatly.
I'm such a worry-er. I know that some people are concerned for my safety and some are going to miss me just as much as I miss them, but I tell you now that I am horrible at letting my worries get the best of me. It's something that I'm working on but I guess I really can't help it. I'd say that is more of a good trait than bad, but it's whatevz.
Trying to finish up my packing for the trip today and tomorrow will finalize all trip preparations for an early departure on Friday around 7am. I am really looking forward to taking lots of pictures of my trip out there and our stop in Nashville.
I'll stop for today as this is just another reason for me to procrastinate more from my tasks ahead.
Photos coming soon!!!!
-Zach
Leaving my friends yesterday was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I wish I could say I didn't cry but I did. I'm pretty sure I shed more tears yesterday than the rest of my life combined. Actually, I know that's a fact. I never cry and I gotta say, I hate it haha. I know it's a release but I feel so weak and so pathetic crying like I was. At this time I'd like to thank a certain someone for being my "listener" for the day, so thank you very much. I know that I will see everyone again in just 3.5 months, but this is something I have never done in my life and that's being so far from everyone I know. This blog title should just be Emo Zach but I'll try not to be a pansy here.
Leaving Nibbler was hard. Having a companion by your side for as long as he has, it's hard to just up and leave him. Knowing he's in good hands is a bonus though.
Saying goodbye to my sister Katrina was really hard too. She's in her second semester at K-State and I've been around her all break so it's hard to say bye to a close sister and friend. On that note, saying bye to Nathan and Adam was also hard, I just wasn't around them as much so its a little easier with them.
Today my mom brought me cookies and milk while I was packing up. That made me realize how much I will miss her. She is so caring and loving and its just another hard thing to do.
I stopped by Jordan Broxtermans house before I left Manhattan. Getting to be with those guys for a few hours was really nice for me. I didn't think I'd see them before I left and that was kinda hard to take, luckily I did stop by and just hanging out is going to be something I miss greatly.
I'm such a worry-er. I know that some people are concerned for my safety and some are going to miss me just as much as I miss them, but I tell you now that I am horrible at letting my worries get the best of me. It's something that I'm working on but I guess I really can't help it. I'd say that is more of a good trait than bad, but it's whatevz.
Trying to finish up my packing for the trip today and tomorrow will finalize all trip preparations for an early departure on Friday around 7am. I am really looking forward to taking lots of pictures of my trip out there and our stop in Nashville.
I'll stop for today as this is just another reason for me to procrastinate more from my tasks ahead.
Photos coming soon!!!!
-Zach
Monday, January 16, 2012
The start of it all
Monday, January 16
Well I leave for the big North Carolina at the end of the week. I figured that I should try and get used to this blogging thing before I get out there so that maybe I can keep it up to let people know that I'm still alive out there.
Today I came to Manhattan to drop off Nibbler with Kacie and spend some time with friends before I leave them all for the 3.5 months that I'll be out there. I was really looking forward to today and was so glad to see Kacie again after all this time. She really is a best friend and it's just nice to see her again. I've learned recently that I cannot be without my friends. I realize that I need people much more than I thought and I am not as "Independent" as I thought I was. Although I'm sure I will meet a lot of nice people out East, it still hurts a lot to have to leave people and family behind.
This will be the farthest and longest that I have ever been away from my family and that scares me a bit. I know I big and seem strong but inside, I'm really kinda a softy. I mean, I have a bunny for Pete's sake! At least he is being left in great hands.
My father is going to be driving out to NC with me and we are doing the drive in two days since it's a 16 hour one. Staying in Nashville Friday night and then getting to my duplex on Saturday afternoon probably if all goes well. My training will be starting the Tuesday of that week and I am looking forward for something new and exciting to do. I am staying with a guy and his fiance and their dog so I won't be in a house by myself which I am so glad for. I'm afraid that had I stayed in a place by myself I may have gone insane. All the emotions of this last month and all the changes that I have had to make in my life the last thing that I wanted was to be alone again, 1000 miles from any friends or family. It would not have been a healthy place for me to say the least. But again, not trying to write an emotional novel.
Not saying that I'm a wuss or anything, but I am a little scared of what the future holds for me. I am excited to see what that all might entail, but still scary at the same time. I know I can sorta come off as tough or trying to be, but that's because I have a great shell to try and hide my emotions from everyone. I know this whole blog is random but whatevz, you don't have to read it haha. It easiest for me to speak when I can't see peoples faces so my true feelings and thoughts are going to come out on here. So be prepared for that!
I'll stop for today, keep a look out for future posts. Especially next week when I get out East.
Till then,
Zach
Well I leave for the big North Carolina at the end of the week. I figured that I should try and get used to this blogging thing before I get out there so that maybe I can keep it up to let people know that I'm still alive out there.
Today I came to Manhattan to drop off Nibbler with Kacie and spend some time with friends before I leave them all for the 3.5 months that I'll be out there. I was really looking forward to today and was so glad to see Kacie again after all this time. She really is a best friend and it's just nice to see her again. I've learned recently that I cannot be without my friends. I realize that I need people much more than I thought and I am not as "Independent" as I thought I was. Although I'm sure I will meet a lot of nice people out East, it still hurts a lot to have to leave people and family behind.
This will be the farthest and longest that I have ever been away from my family and that scares me a bit. I know I big and seem strong but inside, I'm really kinda a softy. I mean, I have a bunny for Pete's sake! At least he is being left in great hands.
My father is going to be driving out to NC with me and we are doing the drive in two days since it's a 16 hour one. Staying in Nashville Friday night and then getting to my duplex on Saturday afternoon probably if all goes well. My training will be starting the Tuesday of that week and I am looking forward for something new and exciting to do. I am staying with a guy and his fiance and their dog so I won't be in a house by myself which I am so glad for. I'm afraid that had I stayed in a place by myself I may have gone insane. All the emotions of this last month and all the changes that I have had to make in my life the last thing that I wanted was to be alone again, 1000 miles from any friends or family. It would not have been a healthy place for me to say the least. But again, not trying to write an emotional novel.
Not saying that I'm a wuss or anything, but I am a little scared of what the future holds for me. I am excited to see what that all might entail, but still scary at the same time. I know I can sorta come off as tough or trying to be, but that's because I have a great shell to try and hide my emotions from everyone. I know this whole blog is random but whatevz, you don't have to read it haha. It easiest for me to speak when I can't see peoples faces so my true feelings and thoughts are going to come out on here. So be prepared for that!
I'll stop for today, keep a look out for future posts. Especially next week when I get out East.
Till then,
Zach
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